Many years later, we visited a city on the east coast and went to look for the three ruined windmills. This was where she surrendered her original maturity (for the bitter trials of our world to come). Over my shoulder I carried a short step-ladder.
'personal annals and phenomena'
I was listening to muted whispers of nothing sensible, and I looked up and saw you awake reading this. Naked bodies floated towards a nearby window calling to each other. Meanwhile, she hid her face but kept her crooked thumbs visible, touching a great cat hypnotized by falling pine-cones.
I think the only plausible explanation for her shambling transience would be a supernova. Because while she is still brightening an irresistibly comic expression would form on her face and no one could make head or tail of it.
The things she threw down were odd, and there were far, far more of them than I’d ever imagined. Her attachment to supplicants was expected, but she never allowed anyone to touch the loose drift of leaves packed inside her blouse.
My economic disposition happens to be part and parcel of post-Freudian alienation. In other words, my life narrative claims a democratic resistance to values of constructed situations.
I thought she had to. She’d been told many times. And there were some amusing facts about her in pajamas. In the snack bar we were both wearing pajamas, sitting around a table playing pontoon. I felt like smoking a cigarette and laying down the law.
Her responses rose and fell. The parakeet flew from room to room. Trees across the street seemed bent by 80 degrees. I listened to her bully beef and dry biscuit reasoning from 12:00 to 2:00. As usual, an afternoon spent alone reading under a cypress tree on Mount Paladermo would have been highly preferable.
Forgetfulness, I am well aware, can be evidence of forgotten casual encounters with prostitutes. Yet it can’t be denied that wearing a fine old tweed scarf during these encounters satisfies a confessional urge.
Anne and I were remembering an unpleasant event one evening. A few years ago, we were in Côte d'Azur, returning from a picnic, and there was a flash of naked bodies - a strange kinetic beauty. Their simplicity glowed. I was surprised and entranced. Anne let out a dull creaking sort of protest. In our reminiscence, we noted the line between one kind of weather and another, as shattered marble statues were offering their ill-luck.
I am thinking of chocolate in a tiny silver box. Sometimes, near the edge of a landscape, or at the edge of an abyss, I reflect on my fleshy face and long sensitive nose, and hold this little box tightly as the horizon turns from dazzling white to a wet neutral grey.
running the whole length of the horizon...